Allow me to share how silence became my authentic intimacy—a place of connection & growth.

 Since I can remember, I have been connected to my body. 

As an 8-year-old gymnast, I dislocated my elbow during a warm-up. The injury in itself was not life-threatening, but the doctor’s actions at the ER changed my life forever.

I underwent two surgeries due to the doctor’s negligence in leaving the bones in a misplaced position for over two weeks. A pool of clotted blood accumulated and grew underneath the cast, causing excruciating pain. The large hematoma was created, and eventually, a blood clot blocked a main artery, cutting off the blood supply.

That’s when I learned to trust my body when it’s communicating with me.

My family was told that if this had gone untreated for another 24 hours, I would have been gone.

Little did I know that vascular blockage and fascial scar tissue started to create emotional and physical compensatory patterns – the beginning of my “recovering athlete” journey and purpose in life.

AWARENESS – FROM LIVING IN A RIGID CAGE TO PLIABLE TENSEGRITY 

Growing up as an athlete made me live in my head more than I wanted—the environment was filled with very strict, rigid paths that contributed to a very disconnected way of living and eventually running my business. 

The beliefs that came along with the “unbreakable mindset” got stored underneath my skin and, silently, created severe blockages. 

The truth was that even though I moved across the ocean, I remained a hostage to my athlete mentality, always recovering from something, without doing the needed work to unwind the blockages that were impacting my GROWTH.

How could I, when I didn’t have the self-awareness of what didn’t serve me and kept destroying my body’s tensegrity model? 

In my early 30s, while helping some of the best pro athletes win championships, step by step, layer by layer, I began to resolve the deeply rooted emotional scar tissues in my body.

However, I realized I could not expect change until I was willing to let go of attachments that prevented me from embracing it in the first place. It required me to lean into SILENCE—my biggest discomfort growing up. 

Observing my behavior in silence without judgment changed how I act. 

Listening to my words changed how I communicate.

I had to learn how to connect to let go without indulging my ego. 

 There is the expectation that, by praying, doing yoga, meditating, or going for a run, we will automatically erase what does not serve us. In my journey, all of that helped to some degree, but it wasn’t enough—it scratched the surface.

THE POWER OF LISTENING TO UNDERSTAND VS. JUDGING. 

At 43, I requested a CT scan of my heart arteries. 

I had no symptoms, but a strong family history, and my body was telling me to check my heart. To my surprise, one of my main arteries, the LAD (“widowmaker” ), was 80% blocked. 

That’s when I embraced  MY HEART & NERVOUS SYSTEM.

I learned that in life, just like in sports and business, you can make changes and strategize all the time. But growth does not come from adapting to ongoing changes. 

I personally discovered how important STRATEGY and STRUCTURE are, but at the same time, they suffocate GROWTH if our inner systems are dysregulated. 

My progress came from CAPACITY building—one step at a time. 

My heart blockage required me to finally disempower what was anchored into my rigid athletic foundation. 

I was standing on my way to ALIGNMENT. 

I knew my alternative was mind-heart coherence — where I feel aligned and empowered. 

It is a journey worth traveling.